Monday, September 08, 2008
Muddled Mind
Quite apparent that I have fallen into the habbit of blogging once a year and it has nothing to do with the lack of inspiration.
I think and I think a lot . It could be the cuplrit .
I think too much .
Too much for me to handle or to analyze.
Sometimes I wish my mind would just clear up or atleast put the thoughts in a orderly fashion , maybe , even list it. I tell you it would make my life much easier .
The other thing that I worry about is the biggest problem of my Life. Procrastination. Just as heavy as the word, nothing less. Its even more amusing since I know the problem but I keep the solution on hold for the next day. I think you understand my dilemma.
People inspire me and I love learning from the experience. But I find it even more fun lately when I have to think whats wrong with them. A bit cynical you think I bet !. I pondered on this topic for quite sometime to find out the source of my new founded pleasure mechanism and I realised it isint my problem. As the bible says " Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" . I am right now the receiver of the action and I am in the process of returning. I have come to accept this because this is the only probable answer to my woes. I have tried and tried and I have failed somewhere and as a result I received what I dont deserve and giving it back too. Living in a foreign land teaches you many things and most of all it teaches you the importance of having a family. I didnt realise that it was also my social and moral barometer. I need that unconditional love and affection to reinforce the faith in myself. It gives you the reason for not becoming " The Next Generation Biting Bitch". Quite a revelation eh !
I think and I think a lot . It could be the cuplrit .
I think too much .
Too much for me to handle or to analyze.
Sometimes I wish my mind would just clear up or atleast put the thoughts in a orderly fashion , maybe , even list it. I tell you it would make my life much easier .
The other thing that I worry about is the biggest problem of my Life. Procrastination. Just as heavy as the word, nothing less. Its even more amusing since I know the problem but I keep the solution on hold for the next day. I think you understand my dilemma.
People inspire me and I love learning from the experience. But I find it even more fun lately when I have to think whats wrong with them. A bit cynical you think I bet !. I pondered on this topic for quite sometime to find out the source of my new founded pleasure mechanism and I realised it isint my problem. As the bible says " Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" . I am right now the receiver of the action and I am in the process of returning. I have come to accept this because this is the only probable answer to my woes. I have tried and tried and I have failed somewhere and as a result I received what I dont deserve and giving it back too. Living in a foreign land teaches you many things and most of all it teaches you the importance of having a family. I didnt realise that it was also my social and moral barometer. I need that unconditional love and affection to reinforce the faith in myself. It gives you the reason for not becoming " The Next Generation Biting Bitch". Quite a revelation eh !
